First of all, I want to let you know that I have been on both sides of the fence... I've experienced the highest of highs and the lowest of lows, just like you!
From being a kid with bucked teeth, bullied and very self conscious at school, to having a very chiselled physique, being featured on a national TV Commercial as a character named Iron Jay, performing at ANZ stadium in front of over 40,000 people, becoming a Professional Wrestler and touring around Australia, and receiving a lot of attention because of this.
Now this didn’t just happen overnight it took a lot of time, sacrifice, dedication and focus to get to where I am. Following my gut and heart and keeping my eyes on the prize (which I wish I could say is the best thing for everyone to do).
However if what you are presently chasing is a fantasy (you have no structure or evidence of you're goal or vision coming true), it can be a very hard and lonely path to trek and one that will never fulfil you and can lead to feeling like a failure, feeling lost and in a depression.